BYEBYE

today 22 dec 2oo8
22:58
i punteh donwan write blog de
but the feeling too strong
i need to write down
i don't care who are u reading now
i just want to write it


tomorrow.
is our form5 frens gathering
i was thought its was alot people and alot people like that
who know
kah woon told me
its just like..
for * close friend * only
so
tomorrow will be attend in the gathering people is..
wei hsing (ME)
soon keat
xi dong
kah woon
ee jie
huey jing

i guess
no more ?
maybe..
cause when form5
we quite close
this should be considered
actually got ghee hong too
unfortunely
he is working
and we seldom talk le
i stil remember
last time he sit beside
we talked and played
very happy that moment
and he taught me alot of things.
thank you
now u work in kimgary at QB
i hope everything wil be fine for u (:
although lesser talk le
but stil hope all the best for u ^^

following.
xi dong.
one of my frens.
can consider best ?
i don't know
cause.
sometime i really hate him alot
and sometime i really quite like him
so confusing
like just now
huey jing say
she just hope that *close fren* wil be attend in there
no outsider
but xi dong say bee ( another fren ) will go
that time i tell him not to call him come
then..
maybe xi dong thought that all class wil be attend
so he ...
( i don't know much too , so i donwan list down to prevent then conflict )

and just now
he sms-ed me
say
I AM NOT GOING ANYMORE
THAT ALL
wow
what the hell is that ..
i very..
very..
very...
pek chek u know
although not me gather.
but u like that say to settle everything ?
i know i very unpatient
cause i don like to wait.
i don like so confuse
i want proper things
i donwan so many things come around and in the end there is no results
i know i didnt ask u why then i get mad now
but i really beh tahan
fine
i got fault too
i know
say sorry no use
forget about it

and then.
soon keat
one of my best fren too ?
he...
last time
very good
although he not much talk
but he is caring
and good ppl that i can say
BUT
after..
he dating with the girl..
he changed.
everything seem changed.
i donwan to say out
cause i dono how to say
and u know
sometime i quite hate the things
but i know i cant hate
so i didnt say
sorry
i am selfish
i just wan our fren to hang around like that
i know i selfish
really sorry
like u see
i donwan to say so many at here also
cause it like cannot finished
there is no ending u know ??
I AM HARD TO BREATH
why ????????????

then is ji hua
JI HUA
why ?
u are so mystery
and i really hate ur attitude
so u do hate me too i know
whatever
alot alot alot thing that your things i cannot finished
zzz
and nevermind le
all kept in heart enough
say more wil make more conflict

still remember
few months ago ?
we played together
talk together
watch movie together
joke together
eat together
play basketball together
and share something to each other
(although some is not really want to say larh xD)
but now
i think is impossible to get back le
xi dong working
me working too although now stil not yet got
soon keat and ji hua
they might can
so our time is corrupted and mess up
want to cooperate each other is hard
and different ppl different thinking
aiks aiks
i dono what to say


here is the pic last time we go celebrate sk birthdae until midnight one
quite syok ya that time
(:


and then..
say tio job
aiks
i got no idea what job i want to do
thank you janice
for helping me ask about the job
(:
i appreciate it
will go to interview on this Thursday or Friday
hope there is got chance to meet u lah (:

and
since so many fren keep persuade me cut short hair
and family too
so..
i decide
go for short hair
but..
not really that short u think la
and no more that long too
aiya
i just wanna try the feel
but all keep against me
):
nvm ler
i already satisfy
what hair i got now
although is fake
cause i straighten my hair
but i am happy
and i am enjoy
although my hair make my lost 3 job
but i still love my hair
why.
i dono
hair give me a strong impression
u know
sometime i really regret i take IT
because i love hair so much
i should go study hairstylist
but i dono i choose the wrong path or correct
just go !
=.=
hair really give me a good impression
like see girl.
i mostly see hair 1st
and then see face.
body like that
and guy same too
see hair 1st
u can say me like abnormal
but i really like to see
=.=

and wednesday
christmas eve
i dono what will happened on that day
hope everything will be fine
there is alot alot alot alot problem
and
this all is not a big deal

TOMORROW I GONNA BORROW RM200 from mum
then shameful things is
i got ATM card
but i dono how to use it !!
god damn me
-.-
really no money no life
i very jealous those ppl
can drive car. got enough money to use
but some ppl there are different from me
they hope for ride MOTOR
yea
life is like that le
when the things u got le
u want other like more better
-.-

okay.
stop here ler
if continue write
i think write how many days or week or month also cannot finished my thinking
xDD
BYE !